I remember that weird feeling in the mouth of my stomach,
like birds were trying to scape from the burning spark of the sun.
Only a few tears reflected on my checks,
but they were hiding the tsunami inside of me
waiting to come out and destroy everything in its path.
I remember sitting there holding his hand
the same way he hold mine when my eyes were full of terror.
I remember each time he closed his eyes
and the fear on mines that he wouldn’t open them again.
I begged every night to someone I don’t even believe in
to let him get out of this one,
for him to see me graduate,
take me to the altar in my wedding,
meet his grandkids,
just one more day.
I remember the last time he looked at me
and the way I could see through him,
diving in that emptiness
knowing that was the last time those brown eyes would make me feel safe.
My soul crumbled down like the dry leaves in autumn
when he gave his last breath,
and I knew he wouldn’t wake up this time
because he was already immersed in a deep eternal dream.
I remember the waterfall wetting the carpet
and my heart stoping
because a part of it left with him.
The smell of fathoms turning on
like the golden hairs of a star,
blaming him for leaving a cocoon that hadn't even started to blossom.
I remember how hard it was for me to let go,
I had one hand in the past,
repeating to my self “what if...”
and the other one in the future,
scared of what would come next,
leaving me crucified in the present.
The worst part was when time passed by,
I remember forgetting that someone was ever there,
turning me into the only prove he ever in this world.
He left this emptiness in my soul that can only be fulfill with the warmth of his arms covering mine
and this knot in my throat that I would never unleash.
I remember how the clock hands started running
the fire that burned inside of me disappeared in the wind
like butterflies flying away in the cold winter,
leaving behind only the ashes of colorful memories
and the wisdom of a well lived life.
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