I'm Trying

I'm trying to break free

But freedom is a never ending road with no light at the end to see

I'm trying to clear my mind

But my mind is in a bind

Distorted images and haunting memories

Memories that attack you in your dreams

I'm trying to breathe

But I'm muzzled by the hand that took my life

Childhood snatched in the blink of an eye

Strangulation, inappropriate masturbation, as I scream please

I woke up it was just a dream

I'm trying to see

But my head is down along with my self-esteem

If I hold my head up high would anyone notice me

Or would I become a reflection of everything he stole from me

I'm trying to heal

One step at a time

I scream at my past

I leave you behind

No shackles, no tears, no regrets, and no fear

My whirlpool life is not filled with strife

And I break free for good

I took back my life