'I'm Just Depressed'

"I'm just depressed."

Depression is a word that we use to describe extreme sadness.

But when I say I'm depressed.

I don't mean I'm just sad.

I mean I am sad, but why am I sad?

I'm sad because I'm angry,

Angry that I have to explain why I'm angry,

Which makes me more angry because I don't even know why I'm angry.

Maybe I'm angry,

Because I'm confused,

Confused about why I'm here,

And what is the point of even existing?

And maybe I'm confused because I'm lonely.

But I shouldn't be lonely,

I have wonderful friends and an amazing family.

So why am I lonely?

Maybe I'm lonely because I'm scared.

Scared to get "too close" to someone.

Scared everyone will get tired of me eventually.

But why am I scared?

Maybe I'm scared because every time someone says they won't go,

They do.

Sad,

Angry,

Confused,

Lonely,

Scared.

These emotions are too overwhelming.

If I told you I felt these all at one time,

You would say I'm crazy.

And maybe I am crazy.

So instead,

I say,

"I'm just depressed."