I'm Afraid

I’m afraid.

I’m afraid of losing you again

I’m afraid of forgetting all about you

piece by piece

like tearing petals from a flower.

I used to pretend talking to you all the time,

but now,

each time I try to remember the sound of your voice

the only thing I can hear is a loud silence

and the tears of my heart for letting me forget about you.

I’m afraid of forgetting the warmth of your arms

or the music of your laugh with mine

reminding me of those joyful days.

I’m afraid of forgetting your face,

or those big brown eyes that showed me new bright colors

and also the many shades that gray can have.

I’m afraid of needing you again

and you not being there for me no more.

I’m afraid of our memories fading away

as the white snow melts in the hot summer.

But worst of all,

I’m afraid of forgetting you’re not here anymore.