I Love Only You

I saw the way you looked at me today.

And I remember what you said the other day.

That I didn't exist in your world anymore.

That you don't think of me as often anymore.

You said that you feel I'm no longer a part of your life.

Nor a part of you.

Funny thing is, later on that day you said you didn't mean it.

But I know better, you can't take back things that you say.

You see I know you.

And who you once were.

I know what you said to me that day a lot of it is true.

So now that leaves me barely hanging on.

But you're already through.

Today I felt like a stranger.

I heard your laughter from the other room.

And I waited patiently for you to come to me.

But I never saw you.

I know the way you left me.

You didn't return the same.

Something was missing.

Something is gone

Something so different.

No hello when you came in, no kiss.

It wasn't at all like the goodbye you left me with.

You felt distant, so far away.

We used to connect.

Me and you.

After all these years.

All the shit we've been through.

But today was different.

I see how you look at me now.

You're biding your time.

You're transparent.

Not certain who to show me.

I feel it slipping through my fingers.

But I won't be fast enough, that's certain.

But you don't want me to be, do you?

You let me fall this time alone.

If things were different, I wouldn't find you here.

If things were different, you probably wouldn't even know me.

But I'm sitting here waiting.

I'm not sure what I will find.

And I'm scared, I'm alone.

After all these years, I'm without you.

From here your world sounds happy.

I hear you laughing.

But today it hit me like a ton of bricks.

You plan to go on without me.

There were so many times you just continued past me.

Walked a distance ahead of me.

No longer walking beside me.

I didn't see it then but I can see it now.

This was a way to prepare me; pulling yourself slowly away a little bit more each time.

To build me up?

To make me stronger?

No, I'm not stronger, my strength is gone.

And I'm sitting here waiting.

I'm not sure what I will find.

I know how you left me.

You didn't return the same.

Something is different.

Something has changed.

The longer I stay, the harder it gets.

I wouldn't keep you just to keep you.

If you love someone set them free...

But I already know you won't come back to me.

I guess I must move on and wish you well.

Please know that I love only you.