I Just Merely Survive

Living is like dying

Only that you're still feeling

The pains of the past

The struggles of the present

And the anticipation of the future

Constantly thinking what it holds

While trying to fight like a man

And wondering why you struggle so much

Giving up would've been so nice

To stop struggling and rest

To finally feel no longer

The pains of your own handiwork

Who cares for me right now?

Why should I even care?

What am I supposed to do,

In this grief-stricken world?

Contemplating my past

And heaving out a heavy sigh

I questioned the Lord why.

Then only did I realize

That life is not about suffering

And that death is not an escape

Life is an opportunity that flies

Like a bubble in mid summer

That flies awhile then pops

Is life if we chose to let it fly

I live like a dead man

Or a robot pre-programmed

I am not a man that thrives

I just merely survive.