I Have Been Quiet

I have been quiet.

I have felt that I have been sharing too much of feeling low.

I have felt that I have been writing too much on not being happy.

I have felt the pressure within myself to feel more upbeat, because others don’t want to hear about all the heaviness I have been experiencing.

I have been quiet.

There are a thousand words stuck in my throat.

There are many ideas and theories I want to share, all stuck in my throat.

There are different parts of my story wanting to come forward and instead, they are all stuck in my throat.

I have been quiet.

I have tied myself in knots to keep it all in.

I have stuffed myself with shame.

I have felt mine and others fear of what might happen when I let it out.

I have been quiet.

I am the censor.

I am the one whose hands are strangling my own neck.

I am a captive that holds the keys to freedom.

I have been quiet.

All I want to do is to speak.

All I want to do is to say it all.

All I want to do is to let go of what is suffocating my voice. My being. My essence. My soul. My everything.

The more I hold, the worse it feels. Time to stop grasping and just let it all go.