I Do Not Wish the Best for You
I don’t know who you are
I wish I could feel anything for you at all
Anger, sadness, pity, anything
But the way you handle yourself leaves me thinking I never knew you at all
The person I had once craved, had once touched in body and soul, had once loved as a whole
She never existed
Everything I thought you were, was nothing
You were a lie, I was a lie to you
I was learning the person you pretended to be
Maybe wanted to be, but weren’t
I thought I was the one that was cursed
But it’s you, it’s always been you
My gut knew
I should have listened
Now you still wonder for yourself
Lost in the obsession of company
Searching for constant sympathy
I was something you wanted but could never be, because I have substance
I am not empty, I am whole
I love myself, you are a black hole
Sucking in the qualities of those you harm
You may not be fond of this, but you are not strong
I had once admired your strength
Life put you through far too many things
But you put life at arms length
Pausing it with drugs and skin on skin
You feel nothing
Tears of realization
You feel nothing
Since emancipation
You feel nothing
Can’t even feel your soul through concentration
You are nothing
But a puppet of your imagination
I do not wish the best for you
I have no idea who you are
I wish that the rest of you that you buried is still alive
I hope one day you know what to do and why they always leave
But I do not wish the best for you until you have a lead
You are not you
Are you even there?
Are you a hollow shell?
Did you ever care?
Are you capable of such things or have you always been a lost cause?
Regardless I’m on to brighter things
No matter who you aren’t
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
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