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I Do Not Wish the Best for You

I don’t know who you are

By Ecarg NosivePublished 5 years ago 2 min read
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I wish I could feel anything for you at all

Anger, sadness, pity, anything

But the way you handle yourself leaves me thinking I never knew you at all

The person I had once craved, had once touched in body and soul, had once loved as a whole

She never existed

Everything I thought you were, was nothing

You were a lie, I was a lie to you

I was learning the person you pretended to be

Maybe wanted to be, but weren’t

I thought I was the one that was cursed

But it’s you, it’s always been you

My gut knew

I should have listened

Now you still wonder for yourself

Lost in the obsession of company

Searching for constant sympathy

I was something you wanted but could never be, because I have substance

I am not empty, I am whole

I love myself, you are a black hole

Sucking in the qualities of those you harm

You may not be fond of this, but you are not strong

I had once admired your strength

Life put you through far too many things

But you put life at arms length

Pausing it with drugs and skin on skin

You feel nothing

Tears of realization

You feel nothing

Since emancipation

You feel nothing

Can’t even feel your soul through concentration

You are nothing

But a puppet of your imagination

I do not wish the best for you

I have no idea who you are

I wish that the rest of you that you buried is still alive

I hope one day you know what to do and why they always leave

But I do not wish the best for you until you have a lead

You are not you

Are you even there?

Are you a hollow shell?

Did you ever care?

Are you capable of such things or have you always been a lost cause?

Regardless I’m on to brighter things

No matter who you aren’t

heartbreak
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About the Creator

Ecarg Nosive

I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.

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