I Am Writing to You

I am asked why

I care about you

After years have passed

More than i’m asked

Anything else.

It’s as if people want to believe

But don't want to at the

Same time.

Truth be told i was intent on

never speaking to you again.

When we ended

You began creating more art,

I read every word

And in most lines,

A version of myself

I had to face if i wanted

To know how you

Truly felt.

I knew you were

Probably trying to

Do anything you could

To get over it.

At first i didn't care,

And then i couldn't help

But care,

And then i tried to hate you,

That lasted two days,

I won't pretend i didn't try

To get over you,

I did everything i could.

Eventually it didn't matter,

Who you were with,

Why you were with them,

Eventually it didn't matter

If you hated me,

Eventually all i hoped

Was that you found

Someone truly kind,

Someone who wanted

It just as bad as you

When you knew it was

The right one,

Someone truly better than me.

I wrote to you things i never told you

Because it felt like you wrote

Things you never told me.

You did stop writing altogether

And i stopped writing you,

I guess you can only write to a ghost

For so long until you become one,

They say it's time to move on now,

That i've come to far to look back.

Time to start too many things over,

The right way.

Too much waste, i hear

To waste another second on you.

It's hard for me to take that

In any type of calm.

When the softness of my heart,

The love that i see in the trees

The people i try to make smile now,

Always trying to make them smile,

The only way to truly live,

Reminds me of a dance

I was always too scared to

Take with you.

- bytheseven