How to Not Care About Yourself
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1.
You should care about you.
Unbrushed teeth chatter,
loved ones surround you, how are you doing
really; are you sad?
What must get done-
will. Fingers quickly type.
2.
Go over self-care instructions:
meditation and instrumental
music--throw away.
Don’t bother listening to
advice from friends, family.
Impractical information; care for others
More than yourself.
3.
Betrayal: lessons of growth, a
stepping stone to give yourself
up for others. You
phone friends to chat, no
answer or Sorry. Busy.
4.
Tell your friend about anxiety attacks,
depression down spiral.
Take no atonement in the release; something
is always wrong, someone always
judges. You’re not safe.
5.
Shut up.
Get your shit together. No one cares.
Think about your family. Cry over
your ill parents and their
crumbling marriage. Twirl your
hair and pretend to study for school.
6.
You have gym on Monday, classes everyday, appointments,
meetings, shower, lunch, coffee with ‘friends.’
Focus on everything at the same time with no time to breathe.
Believe you
Can do every single thing possible then
Fail at three of ten things.
Satisfaction never guaranteed.
7.
One moment to rest, relax.
Two minutes pass and guilt
resides in your overloaded heart
From time ill spent.
Narrow your focus.
Accidentally forget two meetings.
8.
Sit again for just another 60 seconds.
Eat an unbalanced meal,
make empty conversation with people you hate.
Take note of the vacant, glazed over
look they give you as you rattle off things
to do. Soak it in.
Refer to step 1. Repeat.
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