It may appear to you
That I have my life together
You, the outsider looking in
But being me is
Exhausting
And deadening
I feel cracked
I feel bruised
Because of the tricks
My mind plays
I love you
Then I hate you
I'm lonely
Go away
Depression
And anxiety
Bad enough on their own
Together they battle
For the prime spot in my brain
How exhausting it feels
To care about everything
And care about nothing
All at the same time
How draining to be angry
At nothing at all
How dangerous to be aloof
When the risk is very real
I don't know which reactions
Are appropriate
I don't know how to gauge
I'm made of extremes
Irrationally enraged
Or cold and unfeeling
Or ambivalent entirely
They say that being me
Is like having burns
All over my body
That the slightest touch
Is agony
When it shouldn't be
But I think it's more like
A broken mirror
I see me
But she's distorted
Broken by neglect
Abuse
Cruelty
She's there
But only when the
Pieces are put back together
Can you see her
About the Creator
A. R. Ambrosi
I like to write, if that makes me a writer, then rock on!
I started writing as a child because I ran out of stuff to read. So, I only write stuff that I like. If you like it too, awesome! Enjoy! ^_^
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