Holographic Hearts

HOLOGRAPHIC HEARTS

i'm more fragile

than one can comprehend

i butter you up

and apologize all over again

its a continuous cycle

that i'm growing tired of, myself

its contributing negative factors

to my head, heart and health

they tell me i'm too caught up on being strung up

that i need to break free

stop seeing things, so negatively

that i have a habit of guilt

with all things spun out

that it's understandable

but there's nothing to be sorry about

characterize my heart

like that phrase about a box

work with whats in my heart

life's passing me by

and i'm missing out on a lot

it's all confusing

but there's a lot i seem to be losing

it feels like my heart is holographic

its there, you see it

but it doesnt seem real

if hearts break and they fade

then what's the appeal?

You just see right through it

its like a hologram, it's hard to understand

you can't tell if it's physical

regardless of its material

everything about it might as well be invisible

So in true, drama queen fashion

I speak with compassion

But I'm not waiting for your reaction

Our emotions need to reach a deal

I need something to feel

it feels like my heart is holographic

it's there, you see it

but it doesnt seem real

if hearts break and they fade

then what's the appeal?

You just see right through it

what do you do

when you lost everything in life

how do you get it back

and get it back right?

what do you when you've lost all hope and faith

when every inch feels like the biggest mistake

how does this heal my heart

can holograms still fall apart?

looks like i'm next in line

but if i may protest

i'm not ready

my life hasnt had a chance

to turn around just yet

just trying to open up

for everyone to understand

my heart right now, is a hologram

you see right through it

my heart is here waiting

it's in danger of fading

look all its taking

Maybe it's not all that serious

But while I'm weak and delirious

I'm still curious

What's my purpose

For being so furious