Graced with strong hands and a hardened heart
He didn't mind much tearing me apart
I found myself drowning
In the middle of a sea
His cold brutal waves
Washing over me
He's made of water
He could've helped me grow
Instead he'd rather
Take control
Could've cleaned my wounds
And quenched my thirst
But he yelled and yelled
And put his misery first.
I thought the weights on my feet
Were all due to him
But I realized soon enough
That I knew how to swim
And that his waves only had
The strength I allowed
I commanded silence
And didn't hear a sound
I decided that I
Was worth way more
Than his wrong intentions
Or what he had in store
So I took a breath
And swam to the shore
Thinking there are better things that I
Could be fighting for
At first I couldn't
Escape his being
Alone at night
But I couldn't stop seeing
The fire in his eyes
As his grip tightened
Against my neck
My lips whitened
His abuse printed
Carved into my brain
He still had control
Because I was going insane
When they asked where I'd been
I couldn't say his name
I made up a lie
I took all the blame
How could I have known?
There was no possible way
It wasn't my fault
That's what they say
When you fall in love
Sometimes you go blind
And I hadn't seen the knife
That he held up behind
It took me a while
Alone to see
There was so much more
That I could be
I had gotten the strength
To walk out and leave
I just had to prove
I no longer believe
The words he said
That echoed in my mind
It would take work
But I would find
That I could heal
If I learned how to love
Who I am
If I kept my head above
The debris he left behind
The floods that arose
Keep a clear mind
And remember that I chose
That I'm better than this
And his wicked ways
There's nothing I'll miss
I'll have better days
Today my eyes
Are full of stars
Because I've realized
He's given me scars
And he gave me hurt
Enough to last for years
He gave my lies
He laughed at my tears
And his waves held me down
For way too long
I refuse to drown
He's got it all wrong
I am a mountain
And his waves surrendered
He gave me pain
But I don't remember.
About the Creator
Bri Wellington
20.
My mind is a knot of thoughts I can't untangle.
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