Hidden Spaces

And it is where I found you

The most confusing game of hide and seek

Covering my eyes from the harsh reality only to open them and see that it is much worse than I could have imagined

Stuck in the hidden spaces of your own mind

It's like the most sinister maze

Every path dark, a flickering street light here and there

In every corner sat a shadow of who you were once upon a time

Or who I thought you were

I walked along the murky trail of who you had become

Indifference and nonchalance holding each hand

Letting me know that they will always be here to protect me

Those two are dangerous, you know?

Because what is worse than showing anger, sadness, or grief?

Showing nothing at all

But it was needed because emotions are your specialty

Bending my will to support your cause

"Come on. We're going home." I say to you

The tiniest bit of hope in my voice

I pray you didn't catch it

Hope is the most powerful emotion of all

And as we walk out of that maze you say to me

"I have something to show you. I've slew that evil dragon."

Your arms stretched out, your palms up

Cuts on your wrists, pills in your hand, the smell of gunpowder fills my nostrils

A gunshot wound on the side of your stomach

You're smiling with pride

I look into your eyes wondering

'Were you trying to kill yourself or the hypothetical Mr. Hyde that, through a brain imbalance and possible childhood trauma, had been born and had taken over?'

Invasion of the body snatcher

Or should I say brain snatcher

With a kiss on my cheek and a wink of your eye off you run back into that maze

Back into those hidden spaces

That confusing game of hide and seek

Your episodes on automatic play asking if I'm still watching

Unfortunately, yes.

With the volume low and my ears plugged because fear is loud