Hidden in Sight

I remember you in my bones, a stranger in my sight and yet you are my birth mother. You return for me now and I feel empty darkness surrounds you. You reach for me and I run from you life is not present in your eyes. I am not strong enough to resist and I am being ripped away from my loved ones without a goodbye. My light where are you?

I remember you in my bones, unable to run, unable to cry, unable to speak. I am the stranger left to find my way out of the darkness. I am searching for you, where have you gone? I can't find you in the darkness my light has gone and I am alone. Where did you go? Where am I now? Why am I here? I am afraid.

My world has changed now I am learning really fast, learning to survive in the darkness, learning to talk with unspoken words. I can see you in the darkness but you seem so small and so far away I'm running to you can you see me? You are so far away and I am still little I can't catch you my light in the darkness.

I am learned now, I am seen and not heard, I have seen and I am afraid, I am one of many, yet I am not. I feel and I cannot say, I am in a loveless place with strangers of sorts. I hold onto you now, you my light in the darkness that surrounds me. I need you to take me away, I am trapped like an animal that yearns to be free. I exist without purpose I am changing please help me.

Why am I here, my very existence makes no sense and for what purpose do I even strive to achieve? I am nothing, I am a mistake and I am no-longer innocent. Yet my reflection is that of a child. The darkness has been replaced with fear and mistrust and I am losing myself in this lifeless existence. I close my eyes and there you are, way off in the distance, a grain of sand my only friend my light.

I am still here, defined by my past and my eyes are wide open. I am exposed in all my entirety and I am fighting to survive in this loveless world. My mind is not mine, my past is defining me and I am aimlessly bouncing from one wall to the next. I can still see you my light but you are still so far away from me.

I am awake now and I can see the darkness, I touch it, I feel it, I taste it, and I understand it. I am filled with compassion and love for the darkness because, that's all you are. I am not alone in the darkness I have my light to hold on to. I want to share my light with you but you choose to stay in the darkness. But I am growing stronger and you need to let me go I cannot stay in the darkness anymore.

I am reaching for you my light, I can see you clearly now. I feel you around me and love surrounds me. I turn to you in the darkness no-longer clinging to me I watch as you turn away from me and allow the darkness to embrace you. Your expressionless face and empty eyes, you're giving up the fight you are weak now and I, am free.

I searched for you and you gave me hope, I searched for you and you gave me lessons, I searched for you and you gave me humility, I searched for you and you gave me friendship, I searched for you and you gave me forgiveness and understanding. I searched for you and you gave me love I found you and you gave me life.

I am that I am because you never let me go, you never judged me, you never let me down. I am that I am because you believed in me, you gave me purpose. I am that I am because you heard me, you cared for me and you loved me unconditionally.