Her

There’s not a moment where I don't think about you.

There’s not a moment where I don't think about what you did.

I never count sheep, the voices put me to sleep.

I hardly wake up without wondering, thinking

How you could do it.

Why you proceeded.

it wasn’t intentional, yet

It was never accidental.

Your face looks different now, reflecting

Someone who is unidentifiable

Words exit yet I hear silence

You reside in this hole which I can not enter,

Scared of looking down,

You’ll be too deep to reach.

Maybe it’s empty and you’re already gone,

Dissolved in the ground, we waited too long.

I know this isn't the end, but hardly the beginning.

The choices you chose to define yourself are set in stone,

And even if you remove them out of the brick,

Their marks will forever remain with us.

I'm done crying and filling this emptiness for you.

I have to move on, continue with my life that you wanted to leave.

I hope you are happy, watching me grow up,

I wish you could remain with me under my roof,

But now you’re a shadow following me.

Never able to truly feel your love,

We’re older now, I’ve been given enough.

Here in this place I call home,

Tears deteriorate the walls,

The echoes of cries tear at my insides.

I can not face the pain alone,

The isolation is eating at my soul.

There will come a day when I leave you be,

Let your guilt finally rest.

I have decided to live in peace,

Forgetting everything you have ever caused me.

Nothing is without reason, and that I know to be true.

You’ve only made me stronger,

So I might as well say thank you.