Heavy Rain

Dear god it's raining today

I'm tired today, the rain keeps flowing like the tears down my face today

I tried today

I wanted to give up again today

Wanted to be accepted

Understood for just today

I'm here but didn't want to wake up today

I'm restless a lot more than usual

I didn't do it right again today

I wanted to be happy

I didn't do enough today

Yesterday is gone but

My feelings aren't today

I slept too much today

Didn't want to feel this today

Thought it would go away last night

I would cry one more time to see

Everyone smile today

Would do anything to feel peace today

Would give life to a person in need today

Would hold back the tears if I could

Would've taken away someone's fears if I could

Dear god I tried today

The best I could today

Felt dead inside today

Like a part of me was swept away

Like my life was taken from my body today

I love my family today

Didn't want to leave them today

I was let down today

Once again today

Held on to a string today

Got lost in life again today

I don't think I could do this again tomorrow

Don't want to feel that pain

Don't want to cry tears that match

The heavy rain outside today

But I did it today

I lost it all today

Would give up more to see them smile everyday

Would tell my dad I love him

I would do it all over again

For him today

Would tell my mom I love her today

Tell her she's beautiful in every way

Wish I could make her proud someday.