Heartbreaks with Raphaela

S: I'd be lying if I never cried a river for you. You'd be lying to if you said you never watched me drown in it trying to love you.

R: Lie again and tell me you care, and that it hurt to see me hurt myself because of love

S: I often spent days in sadness and my nights in madness. Screaming and making deals with God to remove me or these feelings. Where were you?

R: When I was doubting myself for whatever reason you never loved me? When I was too weak with emotion to think of anything but dying to put an end to this feeling of emptiness?

S: After this, I often associated my feelings towards you with poison slowly coursing through my body taking away all the happiness I ever felt. I often dealt with insecurities by filling myself with the words you often said to her

R: As if my mornings weren't gloomy enough, my nights were filled with thoughts of you... and her... you probably spent your nights with her. The pain of your absence, I couldn't bear

S: Feeling everything and saying nothing, I sat in silence watching her become what you were to me

R: This feeling of bitterness is recurring, this emptiness isn't leaving my soul... it's getting even harder to let you go

S: I tried everything to erase you from my memory but it's like life itself reminds me of you. Our love was bitter but sweet like blackberries waiting to ripen. Everyone tells me I should move on but life is pointless without you. I often imagine her as me caressing your soul and creeping back into your heart.