Have You Ever Felt It?

Have you ever known what it feels like

to completely believe

that you deserve to die.

Have you ever known the tiresome journey

of a long day of depression.

Have you ever known the names

of the monsters hiding in your darkness.

Have you ever known the weight

looming over your body like an elephant.

A weight that presses into your chest

so heavy your lungs begin to collapse.

Have you ever known the urge

to take your own life.

to end the suffering.

To relieve the pain

you have caused to those around you.

Have you ever known the feeling

of looking in the mirror every day

and hating the THING looking back at you.

Do you wake up every morning

and become disappointed you survived another night.

If you have never known the feeling

of screaming at yourself to do better, look better, be better.

If you have never known the feeling

of drowning in your own thoughts,

like a minnow in an ocean.

If you have never known what it's like

to have to FIGHT every day

just to get out of bed.

If you have never known

the earth shattering,

bone chilling,

mind swelling pain

that comes along with depression,

then you have no right to tell me

that it is just in my head,

or that i need to just get over it.

Until you barely have the energy to breath,

you do not have the right

to tell anyone how they SHOULD feel.