Have You Been Drinking?
What is it like to grow up amongst a big family where all marriages ended up divorced or unhappy...
I am a witness
To the breaking apart of the
Purest forms of life.
I have watched years unravel before my eyes,
Witnessed the hatred slowly seeping through
Their skin. You could smell the bitterness
In the air around them.
Around them all.
And how many there were…
I close my eyes and in one hasty blur I see:
A whole decade of love turning to hate.
The echoed clicking of heels on the church
Floor as she walks over to him and he lifts the
White veil from her radiant face; those glazed over
Eyes, cold to look at, when a few years later
They are lifeless in their own exhaustion; the scorching
Screams of newborns year after year.
Those tired lines on her face, like a map of a wasted life.
After a while all the grey spaces disappeared and it was
Only screams or silence; no in-betweens.
As a child I used to look at old photographs,
Buried deep in cardboard boxes in the attic; gathering dust.
With their surfaces faded and corners creased,
They displayed those golden years. Before marriages.
They were holding each other.
Firmly, and with so much love, and with so much
Light in their eyes.
Now I look at them all. All light has
Slowly faded from their eyes.
Today, it’s just
Divorces
And debt
And depression.
The before and afters. The golden days
Versus now.
It seems that all love eventually fades.
There was never a marriage
In my vast family, that had a happy ever after.
I think about myself.
It is so hard to believe in love
When all you've seen is its destruction.
Will I be that woman in ten years?
Will I be that woman signing divorce papers,
Or asking
Have you been drinking?
Have you been drinking? Have you been drinking?
About the Creator
Vicky Babczyk
18 year old with a passion for writing in all categories :)
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