Hate You

I hate you,

I do

It's no secret upon the word,

The facts are dropped,

fallen upon the floor,

There's no secret about it's all within my soul.

But even after my mama told me about your kind,

I kept knocking on your door.

I just hate you,

I cant control it,

cause every time you called me, it was because you wanted a little more.

I just despise you,

I dont have more words to describe it,

And every time I see your face I wish to smash you against the wall.

But I controlled myself, I really do.

Even after I know you called me psycho from door to door,

and tried to alienate me from everyone else.

I hate you,

I do,

But I hate myself more,

Because I was the one who let you enter my world.

I let me love you,

I let you hold me,

kiss me,

touch me.

Now I'm just a broken thing,

looking for vengeance,

Knowing only bitterness and hatred.

Because I gave you everything, and now I don't know what I am or who I was anymore.

And so, I am lost.

But at least I'm no longer lost in you.