I hate it here
I hate everyone
My head is constantly spinning
I'm unclear
Of whether or not I need you with me right now
See, I love you so much more than you know
But sometimes I just feel like I'm suffocating and I just get so low.
I can't help it!
I've sunken in the deep pits of despair and depression too many times before
I take my lighter, I inhale
It's been far too long I been skating on jagged rails
I have to avoid fighting with you
Can you even look at me and say the things you do?
I hate that you love me
Because I love you too
And I would do anything for you!
I hate that you're there for me
When I'm feeling down
You come around
You can tell just by one look that something is wrong
Maybe there is.
I guess I've just been walking on this road for so long
That I just can't really see myself being happy
I hate that I love you
Because the one thing I used to go to
Was pushing people away
They didn't care
No one ever cared before
Not like you
Along the way I lost score
I would keep count of each person that left
"Maybe the next one will stay" I would tell myself
They didn't, and a little part of me would slowly decay
And then I met you
And I didn't push you away
I craved you,
I craved the attention and the love
And that's why I hate you
Because I can't live without you when all I've ever been was alone
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