Happy Birthday, Ma

I remember when you used to finish my sentences.

Didn’t have to tell you what I thought cause you sensed it.

Past two years got me missing those kisses.

Although I could’ve fooled you, being stuck in my mischief.

Feel like you pitched a straight ball. I’m the batter up, and I missed it.

Could’ve been a home run, if I didn’t take my clothes and run.

Thinking life is full of fun.

Not realizing the true harm I’ve done

Now as I sit here with so much time on my hands,

I realize in no courts will my decisions ever stand.

I've realized how much you taught me within being so tough.

I’ve realized how much I’ve got to make up.

I’ve realized our love is so strong it’s incredible, I’ve realized to be away from you again would be dreadful. I’ve realized with you, all my dreams can come true.

I've realized you were my best friend, ready to fight for me till the end. I’ve realized you’re the love of my life, and I’m sorry I’ve caused you so much strife.

I’ve realized you’re always there for me, I’ve realized you’ve never abandoned me.

I’ve realized I got some work to do, I’ve realized all along you were my left shoe.

I’ve realized you’re all I got, I’ve realized you are my heart. I’ve realized you raised me right, and without you, I lost my sight.

I’ve realized throughout it all, you will always be there, I’ve realized together we make a great pair.

I’ve realized while writing this what fell was a couple tears, I’ve realized the only thing left in me, is a whole bunch of fear.

And I’ve realized there’s nothing to be scared of

. . .I’ve already lost the one person that could help me see clear.

Sleep in peace mommy. I love you. Peace. Lil momma.

7-21-13.KJ