It’s harder for me to write when I’m happy
Happiness, being content.
Not often do I have these feelings
I’d grown accustomed to the pain
To the heartbreak, the trust issues, the anxiety.
I spend my time wishing it to be gone from me
Yet what I couldn’t see was that I needed it.
The second it left I felt empty. Restless.
I felt blocked. I needed the pain to write.
I was cut off from the creativity inside me.
Maybe it’s supposed to be like this.
I like living my life with bliss.
I’d rather live in the sun
Than hide in the rain
I can’t go back now
I don't know how
It’s weird is all I’m sayin
I love having you in my life
My brain just don’t know how to take it
Still getting used to being free
Of this monster inside of me
It’s nice feeling this way
It’s new to me
So that’s why mind can’t see
That even though it’s scary it seems
That contrary to my unpopular belief
Pain isn’t what I need
After writing this out I’m finding out
That I don’t need it now
My life is different from before
I’m new. Reinvented. Reformed.
About the Creator
Ink Equus
A writer with a desire.
Follow me on instagram @ink_equus!
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