Hands

I had wanted us

Since I first laid eyes on you

Since we first held hands

Since we first kissed

I had wanted us

I had wanted late nights baking cookies

Dancing in the living room

To silly music

A white wedding

A ring with sapphire

A family

I had wanted us

I put all of me into you

I filled you with the parts of me

I didn't even know I had

I loved you with my all

With my heart and soul

And you left.

So I'm drawing hands again

Empty hands with empty promises

Half of a heart, half of me

The half I wanted you to fill

To love

To take care of

And instead I was abandoned

Like a puppy after Christmas

Or a kitten

Or just a relationship

One no longer exciting, but hard

Difficult to imagine how we got here

All by our own hands