And it's simply magic.
The way poets and writers lose themselves in words.
They manage to put into place words that they would have never been able to confide in if it weren’t for the inspirational feeling.
The way they transform feelings of anger and anxiety into composed music: feeling to the music. Music to the feeling.
I never thought I’d be able to lose and find myself in something so beautiful and destructive at the same time. And love was that one thing that managed to do all that.
It forced me to lose myself in ways I never thought I would,
and find myself in the least expected moments at night or when I think about the time that you kissed me:
that one time that made me lose myself, and also found my deepest, hidden desires that I kept into hiding in fear that it could someday be used against me,
to be used to kill me,
and that’s what you did.
You used all the pieces of me that I lost and you collected and built a green-eyed monster out of them.
It devoured me whole and inserted destructive images of you with another, a better version of me, being happy and confiding in each other’s existence.
I never thought I would say this.
but I regret you.
I regret our moments
and I regret our confused feelings.
because all I wanted to be, was be free.
and when you came along, in denial became my best friend
and my heart became my worst enemy.
About the Creator
Melina Giorgalletou
Just a college student from Cyprus, living in NYC, trying to find herself through words and writing.
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