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Gone Again

A Poem

By Natalie Marie Stefani-RicePublished 6 years ago 2 min read
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Photography by Kevin Laminto

Saying goodbye to someone you love is never easy.

Saying goodbye to someone you thought loved you is even harder.

I sit crying, in worst shape than I have ever been in.

This is the loneliest I have ever been in my life.

Wondering where you left too.

Wondering why are you so angry.

You're angry at the world.

But especially you are angry with me.

It's usually something I have said to set you off.

Something you do usually sets me off.

Then I mention it and you explode.

There will never be any balance with you.

I want to love you and hold you so bad.

Last night I took you in my arms, made you more comfortable.

I whispered to you that I had you.

I said, I got you baby, and your body relaxed, and I held you up.

I held you up.

I'm your wife.

I will always hold you up.

Then I wonder where did you go so fast there were no goodbyes.

You had your things gathered and put away when I came.

Perhaps I came to soon.

Perhaps your intentions were to be gone before I came.

That would have hurt more or less, of this I'm not sure.

But you are gone.

You are gone again.

And it hurts so much.

It hurts so much when you are not with me.

But it hurts a lot when I am with you too.

I'm not sure which one hurts the most, but I do know I want the pain to stop.

Never in a million years did I think we wouldn't be together.

Even in the worst times of each of our lives, you refuse to let me in.

Instead, you leave me lonely and cold.

Afraid and on my own.

Because you choose to, you rather it be this way, because you don't want me no more.

That's all I can guess.

I don't want to think you don't love me more.

But I'm afraid that's all that's left.

I have lost the love of my life.

The only man I have ever loved.

What I need from you, you keep from me like punishment and I don't understand why.

Why is it that you claim to be so into physical satisfaction, but I'm not good enough to give that to you?

I'm trying desperately to understand that you no longer want me, that you no longer need me.

And you no longer love me.

I'm trying desperately to understand.

And I sit alone, so lonely, thinking about how happy we once were.

Filled with regret and sorrow.

Alone and afraid.

And you're gone again.

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About the Creator

Natalie Marie Stefani-Rice

So please grant me peace from the demons I see. They crowd me and stalk me and won't let me be.

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