Why can't I find love, I asked myself in wonder
Outside I saw the lightning, and waited for the thunder
Time slowed while I was waiting and the wonder turned to fear
When I realized what I was scared of, the fear turned into tears
As the tears were dropping, thoughts came racing through
All the flashbacks proved to me what I always knew was true
Why can’t I be pretty? Why can’t I be sane?
Why am I the one who I always seem to blame?
Why can’t I be smarter? Why am I so mean?
I should be invisible, so no one has to see
Since I’m such a screw up, I tend to be depressed
But instead of trying to share my pain, I smile for the rest
Even though I hate it, my existence here is known
I don’t try, but I hurt people, and I am all alone
No one I’ve ever met really knows what I’m trying to say
But in the end it boils down to me saying I’m not okay
Even then they all insist that it gets better throughout life
And that I should put some effort, but I don’t want to try
Some people are so happy with all that they posess
But when you have nothing but time, it’s easy to obsess
I always seem to say the wrong thing when I finally do speak
And if I show my emotions, I show that I am weak
People say that’s not true, and they’re not completely wrong
Feelings aren’t a sign of weakness when you’re actually strong
That’s another thing that I am not, and I guess that kills me more
And it’s disturbing that I have less now than I've ever had before
I saw that last bolt of lightning strike right before my eyes
And by the time the thunder came, I was no longer alive
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