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Frustration

Ode to Mental Health

By Joy ErgangPublished 6 years ago 1 min read
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A tenseness in my shoulders like never before.

Shaking uncontrollably for some God forsaken reason.

Unable to sleep, and unable to wake up.

I really wish I knew what was going on with me.

Is it the anxiety?

Or the depression?

Oh no, that can't possibly be another panic attack coming on!

That's the fourth one today.

I often feel like my brain wasn't wired properly.

Having unusual breakdowns for what seems like no apparent reason.

Done trying to live up to the expectations that are too high for me to reach set by others.

I am not what people perceive me to be either.

Appearances at first glance can be deceiving.

I wish the laughs, snickers, and name calling would just stop.

Instead of assuming you know the person that I am.

I would greatly appreciate you to talk to me before passing judgement.

I am just as human as you are.

It constantly seems like my world is shattering all around me.

Arguing with the voices in my head regularly is exhausting.

If you only knew how broken down and beaten up I am already, would you view me any differently?

I am trying to survive in ways that you'll never know.

Dying every moment as the monsters within me are gnawing their way out.

I don't wake up evey morning to be the person everyone expects me to be.

I try so hard, yet it never seems to be good enough.

Always questioning myself as to what I am doing wrong.

So many times I just want to give up and leave the world behind.

I'm just so tired of letting myself down and not taking care of me.

You have no idea how much I've been there for others and never for myself.

It's so easy to bring a person down, even harder to build them back up.

Suffering in silence is no way to live.

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Joy Ergang

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