It's like I experience something new every time
The way it feels in my mouth each time I breathe
In my lungs
I yearn for you like I yearn for the taste of nicotine
Each puff
Each breath I take in is always a relief
And when I take my last breath, that last part of nicotine at the end of the butt, I feel complete
Yet in the end not all cigarettes last forever
Not all love last forever
That is why I had to stop
I had to take every memory of you out of my system in order to not get reeled in like all the others
I had to
It wasn't of my choosing
Yet what the outcome would be for choosing you
I was such an addict
And such an idiot to have fallen right into your grasp
Such an idiot to think that at the end, it would be fine
But at the end of each cigarette won't last forever
I didn't want to continue to yearn for your taste
As I myself do have a life
And need to continue that life with someone new
With someone that I know for sure won't kill me
That I know for sure the addiction I will withhold won't be horrible
For you have made me this way
You have made me addicted to you and only you
To waste my time, precious time, on you
When I know it won't last forever
And forever is what I yearn
I bid my last adieu
As for I won't suffer anymore
I will be free and be able to live my life
The life I yearn for
My freedom
My precious freedom.
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