Floaty
A Poem About EMDR Trauma Therapy
We’re not doing the eyes thing
we’re doing taps on my hands instead
with a biro
more appropriate, she says
for visceral flashbacks
bilateral stimulation
all the same
she taps me to that other place
grounded in my chair
my arms on its arms
I can still see the carpet...
funny I can come here
usually the cries come to me
unbidden in bedroom gloom
but this time
I’m visiting them
I don’t really want to say hello
Are you OK to continue?
lightness, I say
fuzziness, I say
hear the other children, I say
moaning
groaning
but they fade
and I go floaty
legs disappear
waiting, I say
for
some
thing
to
know
OK to go on?
floaty
floaty
but aware
they are here
looking
intending, I don't say
arms are heavy, I say
heavier
so heavy
fingers fight
Notes taken
but can’t get free from
[wooden] arms
stay put
no exit
A little longer, if that’s alright?
alright
if I must
I must
Postscript: This poem is based upon my personal and real experience of EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitisation and Reprocessing) therapy for dealing with the trauma of child abuse. It is not intended to represent others' experience of this particular therapy.
If you would like to read more of my poetry relating to trauma, you can click on the link below to my website, The Archaeology of Trauma.
About the Creator
Christopher Monk
I'm best known for my work as a medievalist scholar (The Anglo-Saxon Monk, Sodom in the Anglo-SaxonImagination). But recently I've branched out into poetry. And trauma is where I'm starting. You can see more at The Archaeology of Trauma.
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