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Fathom

A Poem About My Struggles

By Sidney SmithPublished 6 years ago 2 min read
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LEGACY, drama speaks

From the heart I can't fathom me.

Apologies, commodities;

Extra dollars so I can follow my dreams.

"Speak to me" but you dont talk to me,

You get too down from my honesty

I wake up I go to sleep, water pours from my eyes;

I can't fathom me, I can't fathom me.

I look at faces in the daylight that are angry.

I go to sleep but my dreams only burden me.

I stand on one side, looking through one eye,

Through the glass trying to see the future,

But only see the past.

Try to breathe in oxygen

But choking on gas.

Try to go the extra mile

But life is moving too fast.

I can't fathom it, I can't fathom it and I can't fathom me.

Eating oatmeal thinking about the ordeal.

Broken hearts lead to broken deals

I just hope my heart heals.

The enemy is on my case,

But hes just trying to steal.

I wonder where my joy is;

Missed out on love when I was just a kid

No I can't fathom it and I can't fathom me.

Everyone tells me to be myself,

But everyone is out here trying to be like someone else.

If they cared about who I am trying to be,

They would quit trying to force their beliefs on me.

"You should be like this, you should be like that"

But I can't fathom it, I can't fathom that, I can't fathom you, and I can't fathom me

There is a whole lot of problems

When following my heart,

And following my dreams God's plan;

Trying to sew up loose seams

The pipe is blowing off steam;

The pipelines crooked in this family.

I desired the straight path,

But I have hands around my throat

Feeling like I can't gasp.

Before I knew it I passed out.

I couldn't fathom it and I couldn't fathom me.

I wake up from my sleep, hoping things have gone differently.

Warfare I had to fight, battleground talking spiritually.

Words roll off the tongue before I even blink.

Emotions run through my veins

Before I have time to think.

Rejection like perfection waiting to happen;

No words for the broke girl.

You couldn't fathom it, I couldn't fathom you and I can't fathom me.

I called upon the most high

For answers to my life,

But he looked down and said

"Just wait it's not your time."

I live in a world where darkness unfolds;

Just as stranger to this home.

I float I am just alone.

Looking for opportunity;

Can you fathom that? It's hard to believe.

I Couldn't fathom it, and I couldn't fathom me.

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About the Creator

Sidney Smith

A picture tells a thousand words, and a thousand words can paint a beautiful picture.

I have been a writer all of my life. It has been like an anchor for me to release emotions, process ideas, and escape into a world of fantasy.

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