Farewell

Strangely calm my spirit remains

Knowing the heaviness of what I must relay

I pray you mindfully receive my truth

My gut knows you won’t take it well

Lies you’ll proclaim as your grief swells

Inevitably disappointing news you must hear

From familiar and once devoted lips

A true test of my strength this exchange promises to be

To witness tears fall from your eyes and not move an inch

Your naïve paramour can no longer exist

No more pretending I'm okay with waiting

For the outcome of this connection to evolve

Doing so only causes heartache and

My affection deserves an unswerving soul

I know the deeper the affinity

The more wounding the pain

Fatefully, you pleaded for me

To remain patient one time too many

Promises constantly forsaken

Unfair of you to expect me to hold on

To an indeterminate fate

When your love has a home in another’s space

I couldn't influence you to choose me

Your promises never offered peace of mind or guarantee

And memories of past heartaches reminded me

The idea of 'us' was not worth foreseeing

Although awakened to the notion

I'd never behold the most authentic you

I foolishly exposed my essence and stayed true

I was as vulnerable as could be

But you made nary an effort to be sincere with me

I held on so tight my knuckles bled

While you speciously existed, biting your tongue

Allowing me to fill your head

Hid away your sincerest sentiments

So foreign I’d be hard pressed to recognize them

I loved you

I'm certain you were conscious of my emotion

Even so, it's time I take these devoted spirits

And let them loose like ashes into an ocean