"Faded Memories"

A love that once was heaven sent, has become so condensed. I remember when we had smiles, laughter and talks of happily ever after. Then one day laughter turned to tears and my smile became a frown. My Down used to be up, but now my up is down. I'm conflicted over walking away do I leave or stay. Delete, keep. Fight or admit defeat, follow, or unfollow?Befriend or face the end? The truth is a hard pill to swallow I constantly pray for a better tomorrow. I looked at you, you looked at me and I realized I lost that feeling where I would get knocked off my feet, instead they stand still. Am I too afraid to let go or even say how I feel? I want you, no I don't. I just need to chill as emotional roller coaster played over and over. I laid silently on my pillow thinking, daydreaming as thoughts of you crowd my head. I find myself getting fed up and without warning I screamed I had enough! I'm tired of trying, my emotions got the best of me cause it seems I can't stop crying. I love you, I hate you. Why can't I just let go. My heart said return to sender, but my feet are planted firmly and still on the floor. I looked in the mirror and chanted I'm strong, I can do this, but it's hard to move on. Then I looked at you and you looked at me. For a moment I was confused, how could I allow you to use me then hurt my heart and soul. You've emotionally abused me, I am a disappointment, because I failed myself. I lost the love I had for me, giving it to someone else. Then I fainted and awoke in a daze. My memory got lost and thoughts of you started to fade away... I felt free and at that moment I smiled and a feeling of relief came over me. No longer am I haunted by our faded memories...!