Fade Away

Emotional abuse doesn't just end when you're no longer with the enabler

They're etched in your head, scaring you to death, everytime you do something debatable

They're almost more present than when you were with them

It's like you're finally getting the attention, but it's degradingly different

You start to do one thing and think

"No, they'd hate that"

You do it anyways, but you always wish you could take it back

They probably haven't even checked up on you

Yet they're still in control of your every move

Good or bad, my mind always comes back to us two

I'm stuck in a cycle because i'll never not love you

Or rather, the feelings I felt when you gave me hope

Hope that lasted a minute at most

I was too blinded by that to see the deceit

Now I'm fucked in the head, never letting relationships get too deep

I want to let you go

Hell knows I have tried

I moved on in life, but my heart stayed behind

I don't know why

I wasn't truly loved

Not in the way that I loved you

I wish I could undo you from my head, but my love was too true

So instead I'll be waiting for the day you finally fade

For heavens sake i'm begging

Please fade away, babe.