Everything Hurts

Everything Hurts

Breathing

Speaking

Seeing You So Happy

While I've been chipped away

To Nothing

There's A Hole In My Chest

Where You Ripped Out My Heart

And Left Me Hollow

And Crying

My Mind Is Incapable Of Forgetting

All The Hurt

And You're To Blame

But I Can't Curse Your Name

I Can't Scream And Cry

Even Though The Pain Is Unbearable

Even Though I'm Lying on The Floor

Struggling To Catch My Breath

Drowning In My Tears

Because I Still Love You

Because I Don't Want To Be Weak In Front Of You

You Don't Deserve My Tears

But I Have Cried An Ocean For You

And Now When You See Me

You See Someone To Pity

I Don't Want Your Pity

I Don't Want Revenge

I Just Want To Feel Better Again

I Just Want To Feel Again

But I can't Move On

There Is Nothing To Move On From

I've Tried To Forget So Many Times

But I Can't

You Are Engraved In My Mind

The Memories Play Over And Over

Not The Memories Of Us

But Of You

The Memory Of You Kissing Her

The Way You Once Kissed Me

The Memory Of You Smiling At Her

And I Pretend To Forget

So I Don't Catch The Eyes Of Others

So I Don't Hear The Speeches

They Only Makes This Worse

It Reminds Me Of You

Of The Way You Looked At Me

When You Left Me

Broken

Confused

Everything Hurts

Walking Down The Street

Meeting New People

Starting Over

And Fearing Someone Will Hurt Me

Fearing I Won't Be Enough

This Is Your Fault

Your Fault

That I Run From Every Chance I Have

A Chance For A New Life

That I Refuse To Let Anyone Into My World

I've Cut Myself Off

Because Of What You Did To Me

I Have Lost Myself

You Took My Self Worth

Made Me Believe I Wasn't Good Enough

I Wish I Could Hate You

But I Don't

I'm Still So Deeply In Love With You

But You Didn't Love Me

You Might Have Once

But You Stopped

And I will Go On Asking Myself Why

But I will Never Find The Answer

I Will Never Have The Peace Of Mind You Have

Because I Can't Feel Anything But Hurt

I Have Tried To Stop It

I Have Poisoned Myself

Trying To Erase You

But No Matter How Much I Drink

How Many Pills I Take

You're Still There

Hovering Over Me

Watching As I Throw Up On The Bathroom Floor

Tears Pouring From My Eyes

And There Is No Comfort

Not In You

But There is Comfort In Someone Else

Someone Who Is There

Someone Who Holds Me

And Looks At Me

With The Love You Couldn't Give

But I Fear He'll Leave Too

That He Will Find Someone Better

Because I Don't Deserve Him

I Hate Comparing Him To You

You Treated Me As If I Was Disposable

And He Treats Me Like Royalty

Yet I'm Still So Scared

That He'll Walk Away

And Never Return

And Though The Hurt Is Dull Now

It's Still There

Leaving My Stomach Hollow

Scaring Me Away From Loving Someone Else

Someone Who Loves Me

More Than You Ever Said You Did

And All I Can Do Is Sit In Silent Fear

Of Him

It's Not Fair

Not To Him

I Want To Feel Love Again

I Hate Feeling So Weak

I Hate Not Being Able To Tell Him How I feel

How I Flinch When He Holds My Hand

Or Kisses Me

I Wish I Didn't Hide From Him

But I Can't Let Him Know

Of The Power He Has Over Me

He Could Crush Me So Easily

He Could Deliver The Final Blow

And My Hands Shake

And I Fear Him More

I Am So Scared

Of Someone Who Has Never Hurt Me

Someone Who Has No Intention To Break My Heart

But He Does Without Knowing

Because I Lay Awake A Night Waiting

For The Memory Of You To Be Washed Away

By Him

By His Arms

And Lips

And I Know I Am Selfish

Trying To Compare Him To You

Even Though He Is More Than You Ever Were

And I Wish I Could See Him

And Not You

But It Hurts