Epiphany

I just had an epiphany

If I keep closing myself off to the world I’m going to let it fly right past me

I just had an epiphany

That the people I call family can one day just leave me

Sometimes I think to myself that if I stay closed no one can hurt me but I’m just hurting myself

I’m self destructive but I can reconstruct myself brick by brick

Sometime I think, should I rebuild this wall or leave it broken down but I always build it back up

I think that I could have been more happy if I never became an artist

Why is depression so closely linked with being an artist?

I just had an epiphany

My anger is the biggest influence on my writing, but I become a different person every time

I just had an epiphany

That life throws shit right at me but I don’t try to dodge them I take it head on and suffer

My life has been one train wreck after another, but I don’t let anyone see it

Even the people closest to me never knows what's going on in my head

From one sleepless night after the other haunted by the demons that fly all over

I’ve put more holes in the wall then being with the people I want to be with

I put on this mask every day and don’t take it off till I’m alone

I just had an epiphany

I can’t trust people because I’ve been lied to and cheated on

I’ve suffered emotionally and physically, and I’ve lost my faith more times than most people

Self medication was my downfall but hey I got clean at least

At least I can say that I’m one of the lucky ones I can say I made it

I can say I lived

Now that's a real epiphany