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Emotional Fuck Up

2018

By Serrena GraggPublished 6 years ago 1 min read
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I'd like to say I'm sorry.

I'm not mad that you said no.

Truth is I don't think I'd say yes to myself anymore,

For what it's worth.

I want to say that I'm happy.

Sometimes that's really the truth.

But I still look at myself,

Like I'm not worthy.

Because my life has been on rocks.

Currently,

I'm trying to be alright.

I'm trying to fix broken spots

but,

Some darkness—clouds my light.

Understand what I'm used to,

The fact that people never stay.

It's hard to let people in when they only take a peek,

Then leave.

Just walk away.

How can I believe you'll stay?

What if I open my mouth,

My metaphorical door,

And you decide after you see,

The deepest parts

Of me,

That I'm not right,

And you take flight,

Leaving me broken,

That's not polite.

Leaving me longing for more.

So I'm sorry if I say no.

I'm sorry that I said no,

But that doesnt mean that I didnt care.

I didn't know how to feel,

I'm sorry that's the truth.

I still don't know what to do,

Life just isn't fair.

I'm sorry I'm not perfect,

I keep making mistakes.

I'm not what you seek.

I'm not sure what I could do

to make you change your mind.

I'm not sure that I'm worthy,

I don't think I deserve

Your time.

Because I didn't let you in;

And though we're still friends.

I'm sorry I fucked up again.

sg

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About the Creator

Serrena Gragg

Welcome to my poetry page. This is where I will leave pieces of me for those who care to read my thoughts.

More from me at

https://linktr.ee/Serrenathedead

xoxo,

S.g

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