Emotional Anger

Anger is what’s inside

I try to hide it

But it’s consuming me

form the inside out

I wish that I didn’t feel the way I do I wish that fear wasn’t what I held on to

I wish that I was brave

I wish that I had enough talent

To pick up my family and carry them

But truth be told it’s overwhelming

To carry so much weight and still have to carry my own

I’ve cried

I’ve tried to wipe away the tears but how could you wipe away so much sorrow

That continues in a never ending cycle of pain

I’m drowning

And desperately holding on to hope

But I fear that the positivity that I had once held on to is starting to fade away turning my blue sky’s grey

A skyscraper filled with hate

I look away because I’d rather stay comfortable at the top then to leave and add another floor of pain

Could you tell me what to do?

You couldn’t even tell me how to feel

My heart beats

but I can feel the crack in it thudding in my chest

You couldn’t hear that

You were blind

But I hope now you see

I hope now things change

And you won’t be

What people perceive you to be