I wish that when I thought of you, my heart didn't still skip a beat.
The way it did when you smiled at me,
or when I made you laugh.
I wish that when I thought of you, I didn't still urn to hear that laugh once more.
It could make me smile even on the dullest days.
You had such a way of making me whole.
But how I wish I didn't associate my wholeness with you.
I gave you the controls to my happiness, how you love your games.
The basketball ones, the arcade kind, especially the mind kind.
And when I think of you, I wish that was what I remember most.
Not that smile, not that laugh,
not how happy you made me feel.
But how I was no different than your console games,
and you shut us off just as you got bored.
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I pictured us together
then, now, and forever.
Taking on the world,
exploring life, growing into better people...
together.
Now you've moved on, happier without.
And all I have is the dying memory of what cannot be.
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