Here I am glazed with a sense of self pity words cannot describe
I see the wear and tear of my financial rut in the bags under my mom's eyes
I always say going out to eat with friends would be nice but the truth is that $15 could be used so much more conveniently, otherwise
Recently I haven’t even been able let out a needed cry
I feel as if my own feelings aren’t even mine
Numbness settles and I tell myself I’ll be fine
But being surrounded by success stories makes me feel less than aligned
I’m starting to think I’ll never get what I want out of this life
Of course I should give it another hardy try
Fix my wronged, what I gave up time after time
But am I really capable of managing that compromise?
Working minimum wage from 9-5
Get my money right and my path should form a straighter line
Well here I am with more money and I’m doing what I like
But it’s not enough, I’m still in debt from my past lives
Never have energy for my passions, it doesn’t feel right
Somethings missing and it’s something I need to find
There’s no way I’m going to to continue me if i always feel this confined
I know my purpose but how do I make it reach others minds?
I’ve stopped writing as much because no one cares what’s within the rhymes
I should do it for myself but I lost touch with my inner child
My dreams are dying and all I can do is lay their corpse to rest
Reality is settling and I’m trying to be responsible at best
Yet there’s still parts of me that can’t consume the fact
The fact that this life we lead can only be in tact
With money and stability, you will not lack
Some of life’s finest things, and you’ll get full respect
But the things I want to do, the things I plan to conquer, take risks and bold moves
For a while it’ll put me under
May seem crazy to you but insanity will get me numbers
Eventually I’ll have an audience that I can inspire to help others
All I want for myself is to teach people that we have each other
Whether my voice is heard through writing, videos, posts, or painted colors
I need more to listen, need more to discover
Life is not the beautiful thing, love is what we need to uncover
Money will bring you things but what gets you through the days is the fire you must not smother
Let it burn brighter, we are all brothers
Acceptance, desire to equalize us all as lovers
Commonality will no longer suffer
My will to live is left to us becoming one with each other
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
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