Drained

Sometimes I wonder

Is there something wrong with me

I feel emotions that surround me

It's almost as if there is an outer force

Trying to break through my walls

No matter how much I try to fight

With every bit of resistance in my might

For some reason things just start to seek through

Some days it's easier

It's like the red flag is stabbing you right in the face

So it makes it simpler to walk away

But what about today

Is there something today

That has grabbed a tighter grip

Or has just the lack of sleep

Make me feel as if I am about to break loose

I wonder

Is there something wrong with me

When no matter how much I try

No matter how much I pray to have just a little bit more strength

Things fall through

I lose control

And forget to catch my breath

I ask what has happened

And no response

Until it all turns

I become the problem

I break down

As if every part of life source is drained right from my soul

You get asked if everything is alright

But there are no words

You are left laying there

Wondering what has happened

And the only question left

Is there something wrong with me