Doubt

I know you wish it weren’t true

But my heart belongs to you

The blood that pumps through

Is the force that makes me move.

I want everything that you are

From your hair to your knees

I want you.

Sue me if it’s true.

I can’t bare to lay awake

Wondering where this road will take me

Lie down with me

Rest your head, relax your eyes

Let me embrace you with the warmth of love

Let me show you the abundance of joy the world can offer

Let me introduce you to the sound of love

Let me guide you through the chambers of lost souls

The will of those who have died along my path

Those who have hurt me

Those whom I have hurt

And those who deserved a better ending

I want to expose my guts to you.

I want to show you my inner workings

I want to show you everything I am

For that, I apologize.

I am sorry that makes you uncomfortable.

I’m sorry that I can’t help this.

I wish I could take your pain away.

I know you feel it

I know your mind is consumed by sadness

I know things are rough now

Let me help you come out the other end joyful

I hate that I can write so much about you

I hate that I can feel you

I hate that I am so moved by your presence

I hate that you can make my heart smile

Your smile

Your eyes

Your touch

Your laugh

You bring me joy with the smallest things

For that I am angry

But I am thankful

So very, very

Thankful