If you really knew me.....
you'd know that I'm the third child of seven children
that I never once lived with my mother
but I would never want a different one
that I have never met my father but I love him anyway
that I grew up all my life with my grandparents
that it doesn't matter that I've spent part of my life being told I'm overweight
because I've never given up
on the idea of my thoughts being worth something
If you really knew me.....
you'd know that I spent part of my life hating myself and that's okay
because the whole time I never failed to believe I was worth something
that I will laugh at things I cannot change
that I sometimes joke around about my life
but my life is not as funny as my jokes
If you really knew me.....
you'd know that my family is not perfect
but I make it out to be anyway
that I never really liked my life
and always thought about giving up on life
but I'm very glad that I didn't
that I've let many people down
because of the pain and pressure I go through
If you really knew me.....
you'd know that I was once told that I would not be able to walk
that I may smile an look happy and everything's okay but that's not the case
that I wake up with smiles on my face and think I'm safe
but sometimes a smile hides what's really going on in my life
but if you really knew me you'd know that I don't want to hide anymore
If you really knew me.....
you'd know that I have a lot of work to do
that I once was lonely and aware of it
that I've spent part of my life that way
that I never really loved anyone
because I'm to afraid of what's happened in my past
that I have lost as much of my life that I have won
and that winning isn't as fun as it looks
If you really knew me.....
you'd know that I'm in love with someone
that I once had a plan for life
that sometimes I go to bed crying at night
that I've never found anyone willing to accept me for who i am
If you really knew.....
you'd know that I'll be moving on soon
and that I'm scared to do so but I'm ready
I'm ready to change
and when I look back on my childhood
I know I'm going to be able to smile
so now ask yourself
did you really know me
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