Deserve

Where did it all go wrong, so quickly?

The mad scramble to be noticed

and the edge of the cliff

That no one sees until

They fall over it into the abyss

The cost doesn’t matter

We just want to be on the front of a perfume bottle

We want to see an M after 100

We to be seen that others can see us

We want to be trendy freaks

Shameless is something that only old people feel

We are young and wild and free until we realise that reality

In its cold arbitration,

Does not care about what you think you are

I’ve done nothing to deserve anything in my life

I shouldn’t be here

No one wants me

I don’t want myself

My words are meaningless

Less important than the other guy

I’m just taking up space

It’s all competition still

No matter what you say

I’m not cool or interesting or freaky enough

I don’t have dreads or tattoos

I don’t know where the good weed is

Or where to get coke or acid

I should right? Isn’t that what makes

A person interesting?

Where the substances are?

Am I in the wrong era?

Should I be a dad with a 9-5 job that you laugh at?

I’m the last guy picked on the football side

I feel like a failure

Praying for the ground to swallow me whole

The lights to disappear from my face

The noise to crumble

The feel of love to pass me by once more

It must be the loop I am doomed to repeat

Or a penance of a failed life

See!

This is what comes from inaction

And I’ll weep once more

At the cruel joke that is my life

They will fall indifferently

Turn away like the rest

I am not meant for this world

For the world is not meant for me