Demons

i thought i’d try make friends,

even though i could’ve done without you,

i thought i’d make peace,

even though i’m very far from peaceful with you,

i thought we’d move on,

even though i think you hold me back,

i want us to co-exist,

because i’ve come to the realization that, you

exist within me

God knows i tried,

no, i thought i was trying, like

cutting my skin would open the exit door for you, like

begging you to leave would work, like

running hard i would outrun you, like

jumping off a building would...

i’m tired... and you see it.. you know

so i’ve decided to make peace with you,

i won’t run anymore, i’m tired

i won’t avoid you anymore, i’m tired

i won’t chase you away anymore, i’m tired,

maybe i can be at peace,

knowing i’m dealing with you,

accepting you,

acknowledging your presence,

knowing you’re there...

maybe that way,

i can live

Niyonzima