Dear Mom

This woman is the first love you have.

The first person you see when born.

But why did you leave?

I will never understand.

Your own blood left in the dark.

I was abandoned by the first person I loved.

Daughter's first best friend.

She just left me in the dust.

As a child,

I could never understand.

Wondering if all I did.

I thought I would never get out of the funk.

Teen years were harder.

I needed your advice.

But once again I was just left in the dust.

I forgive you I promise.

I miss your voice.

But the drugs were just enough.

To leave me behind.

Lost and alone.

I just wanted to stand up.

The drugs are what kept me alive.

I got better.

Without your help.

I see you are doing well.

Thousands of miles away.

Starting a new life.

As an adult.

I learned I could not do that to blood.

I look at her smile.

I am the only one for her.

I'll watch her grow.

She has a mother.

Drugs are no joke.

It breaks a family apart.

But be glad I am stuck with the curse.

The curse you tried to send down.

Dear Mom.

I still love you.