Dear 16-year-old me
I remember the day like it was yesterday
The ink might be blurred but I remember the promises I made
Even though they are starting to fade
I am sorry that I killed you, we just couldn't coexist
We are so different you and I, I'm sorry I couldn't save you
Your death was something so long overdue
I am everything you vowed never to be
You said you wanted your body to be free
I am sorry I imprisoned you
I am in a cage trapped, yes. That's true.
I want you to know that it's not your fault
You had dreams, I am sorry I couldn't fulfill them
You said you'd never touch alcohol I'm sorry for being a disappointment
I was trying to blend to the entertainment
I don't know when exactly, but I lost you in that moment
This is probably the time to blow the trumpet
When I took my first pull in that blunt two years ago
I heard your voice pleading me to it go
I am sorry I broke you, it was just my ego
I am ashamed to be writing you this information
Letting slip this abomination
All the promises I made are broken
Shattered into pieces by the heart that made them
I humiliated you and mocked your ambition
Now I lack direction
I thought I was being woke but I didn't realize I'd fallen asleep
To the past I took a trip
That made me realize how I am now so cheap
I know the value you put in yourself
You wouldn't settle for the life I chose to have
You valued freedom but didn't abuse it
You loved your health so you didn't risk it
You told me you loved me
You said I must never change
I remember that day like it was yesterday
Thinking about it I fell apart today
Because it's today that I remembered that you were someone...
I wanted to be
And know you are gone, to be forgotten
Dear 16-year-old me
I am guilty of your murder
Please forgive me
About the Creator
Anathi Bungani
I was born and bred in Tabankulu, a small town in the Eastern Cape province in South Africa. I was born on 10 June 1999 and I am a writer. I used to recite poems in High School too. Please rate, share and tip my work. Thank you.
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