heartbeat so fast so fast
too fast
lying in bed, creating, curating, manifesting dreams
imagining yourself in 5 years living in your apartment in New York City together looking over to them and seeing the skyscrapers behind you
but you open your eyes and you’re in your own home lying next to your stuffed animal and the safety of your blanket
you imagine the conversations and arguments you will never have
looking at other couples realizing that a couple is two and that
right now it’s a one-sided relationship living inside your head
that look they gave you today, it may just be a “look”
but to you
it was... breath-taking
it was the best thing that happened all day
your highlight
that’s okay because this person, is the best person
you can’t ever be mad at them
they seem to do no wrong
they are the perfect human being. period.
dropping everything and anything, moving things and shoving to spend time
your energy being pulled like a tug of war rope, revoked like spirits from the dead and driven out of your chakras
so that you can feel content with the state you are in with them
and the slightest bit of reality
excitement.
isn’t even the word to describe how you feel around them
a feeling an elation, a frenzy
giddy at the thought of seeing them
making decisions based on theirs
this relationship belongs in your head
it isn’t one for reality, it’s too delicate
delicate yet deadly
reality would destroy, crush it, then stomp on it
so you keep it in you’re head locked away in your heart
perhaps if turned into reality it would spoil your innocence
you can control every aspect, every turn and corner of the relationship this way, forming the best lullaby
nothing can harm the relationship if you keep it inside your head, right
locked up, kept safe, only retrieved or recovered by request
it never leaves your head it’s a
deadly utopia
thing is ...
it won’t go away
About the Creator
Lucy A
We all have a voice but I just choose to share mine.
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