Don't talk to me about the weather
As if I am not of this world
Do not talk to me about how you're doing
Since we all say okay without hesitation
For we all don't want to share our burden
Shallow formalities
Instead of depth and meaning
Tell me about the scar on your arm
That you probably assume I never noticed
Solely because you never saw mine
Tell me about the times you've been so low you wanted to die
I can see them swimming in your eyes
The same way I debated swimming in pills
And drowning in alcohol more than one time
Do you still believe in good
Despite the amount of hurt you've endured
Which emulates in every moment of hesitation with me
Or do you drown in darkness
The kind that rolls off my tongue like cigarette smoke
Giving you no choice but to breathe it all in and cough it back out
Or choke
Maybe that's what you see in me after all
Tell me what you want from me
Don't waltz around the issue
Circling it in six
Yet somehow only brushing it with my skirt hem
Wearing my heart around your neck like a prize
Neglecting the fact you ripped it from my chest
Despite my screams of protest
What I wouldn't give for an ounce of attention
Desperation doesn't become me does it?
Not wanting to die
Well that's hard work sometimes
And you know that as well as I
Because hurt people, we hurt people
And honey are we toxic
Breaking every bone in each other's bodies
But you're stronger than I
And well I can't break you like you break me
So tell me why you're worth breaking for
If you can give me a reason
Well I'll try to understand it
I'll let you crush me to dust in your palm
Or better you grind me in pestle and mortar
Until I'm nothing but fragmented pieces
I'd never be able to put back together anyways
And you can use my brokenness
To build yourself back up
If that will heal you
Or form me in the likeness of your fantasy
Call yourself creator
My personal salvation
To whom I'm indebted
And tithe from my bones
Lips and hips
Convinced I owe you that
Maybe then you'll want me
No, you won't ever want me
But darling I still care
And I'll die once over
If you don't have to die alone
As for me well don't worry about it
I've never needed anyone
I hurt literally everyone
My intensity will scare you
So you'll end up leaving me anyways
You'll smash my heart anyways
About the Creator
Jane Doe
Exploring life via playing with words
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